Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Ham and Agassiz

   A little over a month ago, I came across a poetry contest sponsored by a well-respected Canadian poetry journal called Contemporary Verse 2 (CV2). The contest is called, simply, the "2-Day Poem Contest".
   Here's how it works.

   You are given forty-eight hours to write a poem. There is a catch, however. They also supply you with a pretty random list of words you must use in this poem. You must use each word at least once. The poem must also not be longer than forty-eight lines (if you appreciate symmetry, this works out to one line per hour). The contest begins at midnight of one day and ends at midnight two days later.
   I thought this was an extremely cool concept and so I entered! This past Friday evening at midnight (CV2 is published out of Winnipeg so, given the one-hour time difference, it was 1:00 A.M. on Saturday my time) these were the words we all received:
   Did I mention it was a random list...?
   The word that stood out the most for me was "ham". I knew I didn't want to write a poem about food or cooking so how to work "ham" into a poem? I used the above pic as a Facebook status over the weekend and one of my FB friends commented that she didn't know how I was going to write a good poem with the word "ham" in it. I was rather in agreement. I spent about half an hour pondering this list of words and then finally went to bed with them swimming in my head.
   I woke up the next morning and had, for all intents and purposes, wasted about seven hours of potential writing time. I didn't want to stray too far from my normal routine so I got up, would have read the paper if they'd actually delivered it, had some breakfast and coffee and spent a little time on social media and then decided I should maybe get to work.
   I sat down with the words again, hoping that some connection or common thread would make itself known to me.
   Just a day or two previously, I'd been going through an album of pics we'd taken on a trip to Agassiz, B.C., back in 2009. Lewis Nunn Agassiz, my great-great grandfather, had settled on a plot of land on the Fraser River in the mid 1800's, after an unsuccessful attempt at gold prospecting. Others found their way there as well and soon there was a thriving community which became known as, appropriately enough, Agassiz. I found myself looking at a pic of his travelling trunk. His name and other writing was on it and it appeared to me that it had been stenciled on. I remember a train of thought which had me wondering when they started using stencils for things.
   Then, a day or two after this, I receive my ten contest words and, lo and behold, "stencil" is one of them. I continue on through the list and I come across the word "pyrite". Pyrite is also known as "fool's gold", something I'm sure Lewis likely encountered. At this point, I knew what the poem was going to be about! And I also had an inkling what I was going to do with word "ham"!
   I sat down at the dining room table with my writing pad and started really looking at the words (now that I had an idea what the topic of the poem might be) and trying to work with them. I ended up with a bunch of scattered lines, words scratched out, arrows drawn, the whole rough copy thing going on. I then sat down with the laptop and started putting the whole mess together!
   Back in the mid-eighties, I wrote poetry all the time. Much of it (as I'm sure a lot of poets would attest to) was garbage. I did, however, manage to get 7 or 8 of them published in well-thought-of literary journals, both in Canada and in the States. Then, for some unknown reason, I stopped. I do remember enjoying the process, though, and found myself once again on the weekend all wrapped up in wordsmithing. And loving it!
   Here is the poem I finally came up with:

     Agassiz

The satellite, overhead, told me how
to get here.

Before, though, much farther away
and in a different century,
he is on his knees, broken in a creek-bed,
and every golden fleck in the pan is pyrite,
just pyrite.
The water laps up to the soles of his boots
and freezes.
He knows now the promises were faked or fabled
and the one last tenuous fibril of this dream
is lapsed, dissolved between his fingers
and flowing away with the 
glacial melt.
Back down the Fraser, then, finds flat land
at the foot of a mountain, goes into the forest
and begins to break it.
Stalwart beams interlock and crisscross
above his family who have come from
the other side of the continent. Wing
has cooked the ham, it is soaking in its juices,
its aroma and the wood smoke drifting
up among the rough-hewn timbers.
He is in the corner, sitting, 
his own smoke is like a veil.
And through this veil, there is a trunk.
There are quilts and blankets on top of it
and on the side someone has taken a stencil
and painted on it, boldly, L. Agassiz esq
His travelling trunk, it has followed him here,
it is ever-present and his eyes are upon it.
When he has gone again, the land continues to grow.
The sons and daughters grow as well and
generations are there, in black and white, on the front
lawn. Tea is being served.
In the next hundred years, it is a place
of pilgrimage, children playing on the back lawns, 
grandchildren in among the trees,
great-grandchildren appearing
through the mountains
and then there is

me, standing in what is now
their driveway. 
I am there with spirits.
There is still one hewn log visible in this place, the rest is
mirrored halls, chests of drawers, appliances.
And, above me, a ripping satellite.

    So there you have it, my entry in the 2-Day Poem Contest. On CV2's website, you can go back and read past winning entries. Given the quality of those entries, I don't think this poem has much of a chance. I was aware of this as I was writing it and pondered starting all over. If I had done that, though, I simply would have been trying to copy someone else's style of writing and that would not have sat well with me. Nor should it have. I did find myself all caught up with the family heritage of what I was doing and this gave it a worth of its own, regardless of whether it goes on to win anything!
   For fun, you can go back to the original list of words and double-check as to when and where I used them. I wrote the poem somewhat based on a picture of me standing in the driveway of "Ferny Coombe", the name given to the Agassiz homestead. I remembered having to use the our GPS heavily on our trip to Agassiz, and this really was the easiest way to fit in "satellite". And the "Wing" I mentioned was the Agassiz family cook.
   The contest winners will be announced round about July 1, will keep you all posted! Wish me luck!







Tuesday, April 7, 2015

My Easter

   This past Sunday was Easter, and I spent it in a very leisurely way-- slept in, sat on my butt on the couch with the laptop, made a a quick trip out for propane and then had a nice steak dinner with my wife and her mother.
Not terribly fond of either one of them, actually...

   I did all this under the auspices of a holiday commemorating the resurrection of Jesus Christ-- an impossible event involving a possibly mythical man. I am game, though, for any celebration which provides me with an extra-long weekend. Yay!
   Back when I was a young lad, Easter invariably meant a  sunny day, lilies and a trip to church. Thankfully, it also meant candy and eggs. I remember it kind of annoyed me that Easter didn't generate the deluge of gifts that Christmas did and it befuddled me that people said it was a religiously more significant occurrence. I guess it was the fact that anybody can be born but only Jesus could actually die and then come back again which highlighted its significance. Oh well, as a kid, it just seemed like both a wasted opportunity for more gifts and having to get dressed up, all over again.
   I want to say that I am an atheist. It's a term which I think most people are familiar with. It's also a really nice, short little word and I appreciate short, little words. Most people understand an atheist to be someone who does not believe in God, or other deities.
   
Love it when the grandparents get all cute like that!
The problem though is that, by the truest definition of atheism, an atheist also does not believe in an afterlife. I believe in an afterlife. I just don't believe in God, or gods and I don't think someone is "in charge". Why and how I believe in a godless afterlife is probably a subject for a future blog post, however. In the meantime, I'm not sure what you should call me.

   Because of all this, religious holidays like Christmas and Easter can be a little problematic. There is some need to partake of holiday rituals because the majority of your friends and loved ones are. At the same time, though, there is also a need to protect your integrity as a non-believer.
   I wonder if Easter would be more fun if I believed in Jesus? There was a time when I at least believed in the existence of Jesus and I spent a lot of time pondering on what kind of man he might have been. I never believed he was the son of a god or anything but I did believe that he walked this earth and possibly had some charismatic pull over people.
Jeffrey Hunter in "King of Kings". Some actors get crucified
for their performances---Hunter didn't.
   Because I used to think he actually existed, it was always enjoyable for me to sit down and watch movies about his life, particularly at Easter. One of my all-time favourite movies is "King of Kings", with Jeffrey Hunter. For a brief period of time, on Easter day, I would take out my copy of this movie and watch it, generally by myself. It was kind of my own little Easter tradition. It's one of those powerfully epic Biblical movies and certain scenes never ceased to move me. I was also in love with the soundtrack.
   As my belief that there actually was a Jesus of Nazareth dwindled, my love for depictions of his life necessarily changed as well. Suddenly, it made almost as much sense to believe in a movie which had Santa Claus in it. So I now feel robbed of the one small connection I still had left with Easter---its movies.
   I am still quite happy to wish my friends and loved ones a Happy Easter, the same as I might wish them a Merry Christmas or a Happy Hanukkah (or St. Patrick's Day or Halloween, for that matter). I have no problem with acknowledging what might be important to other people, regardless of what my own belief system might be. I think we all grasp at what makes us happy and if the thought of sailing along on this rudder-less ship called Life, headed inexorably toward the edge of one of the greatest experiences a person can have makes me happy than so be it! Perhaps I should come up with my own little holiday, a day in which I celebrate a lack of gods in the world...hmmm...how about "Just Do Good Because It's Good Day"? Or maybe "Big Unknown Adventure Day"? Or, if all else fails, we could call it "Don't Put All Your Eggs In One Easter Basket Day"!